Staying focused ~ there are days…

Counting weekly points can get discouraging and little boring at times. These past few months have been a huge struggle for me to maintain my weekly allowance. (I’m just telling all my baggage today.)
I ask myself, daily it seems like, why has this become so hard? Why do I give up or in (depending on the circumstance) halfway through the week? I have totally lost my focus and drive. Yet, I still get angry when I’ve discovered not one but two more pounds have crept back up on my thighs.
I have even lost the motivation to make grocery lists and prepare my coupons to make massive savings posts. I am in a funk and I can’t seem to clear my goggles to see my way out!
To me this feels like the 7 year itch in a marriage. It has become the 3 year itch of loosing weight.  In number prospective I’ve only gained back a few pounds but I feel the inches back in my thighs and hips. I know they are there whether the scale says so or not.
How can I motivate and shape you if I am cheating myself? I don’t want to fall into the category of “Oh yeah I did that once before.” or “Oh, yeah it works but I just can’t do it now.”
I didn’t make a new years resolution this year because I didn’t want to set myself up for failure and to me it shouldn’t be the question of whether I can do it or not because I know I can, its the question of, What will it take to motivate me to light my fire back up and get back in the game?”
Close your ears I say, close your ears to the voices of disdain, to the voices of unreasoning and look yourself hard in the mirror to say ~ “Yesterday was yesterday and today is today. The week is not over, only by half I say. Take it one day at a time and if you fall behind, remember to just take it one day at a time!”